Already miss the sign...

What do you do when you find that you get to somewhere farther than your expected destination?

What do you do when you come farther than you thought?




Will you turn back?

Or will you keep going although you have no idea where you're going to?




I always clumsily go through my expected destination. No matter it is driving, walking or any other ways, I often pass the point I planned to get to accidentally.

Luckily, I finally noticed some signs before it would get me trouble.

What I do is to follow the sign, turn back to the way I have used to get to the point I firstly mean to go.









Currently, it seems I am driving to somewhere where I have no idea what, where, when, and how the end is.

I am not sure whether I should take this path or not and no idea at all where this path would lead me to.

Actually, I see yellow trafic light which tells me to slow down. But for original Thai, we take it as "step on the hammer and go faster." Since I am Thai... but already stay in the USA, I am not sure if i should slow down or keep going.

While I was wondering, before I knew it, I realize I already come too far.

A statement of my best friend is like the red light, reminding me to try to less speed and stop while I hesitate if I want to do it.





Do I want to stop?

Definitely not!



But, well....

I don't want a ticket.

Somehow I should limit my speed since I think I am going too fast?

I know so far I am too far and I realize I already pass the point I should be. But since I am not a good driver and I often miss the signs, and well, driving in the USA is kinda confusing for me right now, you think I should turn back?

Or stop somehow?

What makes a family?

What does a word FAMILY mean?




When I was young, I always heard that a family contains a father, a mother, and kids.

When I grew up, then I learned to know that, in a family, there doesn't have to be dad, mom and me.

My definition of FAMILY changed to be something else which is verbally unexplainable, but can be explained by heart.





Currently, I am with a great family.

Why great? It's not because of their economic status like house, cars, jobs, or else.

What I see in this family is a sweet couple. The parents are nice and sweet to each other. They are partners; always share opinions and encourage each other. They are humourous and patient to their kids but strict at the same time.





When I look at the mother, I see a great woman.

She's active, kind, understanding and calm person. She always is patient with the kids and finds some time to spend with each kid equally.

"Tired?" I asked her.

"Always," she answered. Although that was I got as her answer, but I always see her smile and laugh with the kids.





As looking at her, I wonder if I could be like her if I would ever have my own kids.





Then, the father,

He's the only one to work in this family. Though I heard he said he's tired with his work every evenings during dinner time, I always see him runs to the kids every times he gets back, encourages his wife when the kids wear her out and help her taking care of them.

What I like in him is that he doesn't put burden about the kids only on his wife's shoulders, but he doesn't mind to jump to help whenever the kids get her in trouble.
These are differences I see in some family I know.As looking at him, I wonder if my future husband could be like this.






After spending all of my life to see people around, I picture what my own family would be.

But anyway, all I wish to get from my boyfriend is only do not ever leave me deal with my life alone, give me hand, and encourage me whenever I feel discouraged.

And if my boyfriend would ever turn to be a father, fatherhood would happen itself once he knows there would be a new life which is a part of his life.

If that situation would ever happen in my life, I am excited to see how a guy turn to be a father.






I talk nonesense, you think?

Well... before I dream away about my boyfriend, husband, or even great father of my kids,

now, I should find that guy first.

First step on the land called USA

Finally, I find my way back to my blog.


Let me tell you something about being here.







When I arrived in the USA, O'hare in Chicago welcomed me with -1 degree celsius temperature. I returned his favor by having jetlag. While realizing that the airport was huge and the immigration checkpoint was frustrating, I was confused and got headache by transit trains there and missed my flight to New York on purpose just to hop on the train over and over.

28-hour flight (exclude the time I meant to spend more in O'hare) was tiring... It made my new Thai friend and me to be the last ones to get to the campus where our orientaion was.



And... yeah....


"To be late is OK," we kept our Thai identity perfectly.... Thai aupair was the last to get there....

Craft class, I made Thailand national flag pole.

Everyone seemed surprised to hear me talked about every single day, around 8 in the morning and 6 in the evening, Thai people stop and stand still until Thailand national song finishes.

Believe me, it is not as amazing as you see it yourself when you're among the crowd and everyone stops walking suddenly just to stand still, just like you pause video, and things move again after the song.

Anyway,



My days at the orientation was over and now I have moved my bottom to be with a nice family for a few days. I still need time to adjust myself to get use to things around here.

Wanna share my bed?

It's too big for me to be in there alone.

One thing that I adjust myself to it very, very well is food. While the other girls said, "eww" or "yike" while staring at food in cafeteria, Alisa was enjoying the food and asking for more.

I know that it would sound regretful... But I predict myself that there would be a dozen kilo grams I would gain when I return home.

And you know what? My sense is always right!!

As knowing I am about to get sick and medicine I am taking has an effect on my sleepiness, I think I am about to have homesick...

My schedule turns different. There's no staying up late at night to chat with someone, no getting dress in the morning to get to school and no waiting home in the evening to have dinner with mom.

As writing to this line...., I guess I already have homesick....

If there's something different, please know that I am asking for some time to get use to things around.

And if I can handle it, I may not gain much weight as I predict.

What A Congratulation Gift!

"We want to congratulate on your graduation," a friend said.

"After we thought about what we should get you, we have an agreement."

Then this is what I get from my beloved friends.

Hmmm.... a panty?

It says...

To KHWAN,

Congratulations upon your success!

We wish your another life step is strong and leads you to great things in your life.

We know that it's winter when you are there, so we would like you to bring this gift.

Use them when it snows and think of us whenever you wear them.

As you are new generation, you should dare to do something different.

Congratulations!

Friends

Well....

Check out what they give me....

and could you tell me if I should follow my friends' suggestion.

To wear bikini when it snows

and wear down coat on the beach??

Well....

Before summer on the beach....

How can I survive, then?

Finally!

Guess what it is!

After having been fighting with it for almost 3 years, finally, I can get rid of it from my life forever!

The good thing of this stack of those books is tonight will be the first night in this past 4 years that I will be able to sleep in peace.

The bad thing is...... I have no any excuses to find my mom for going to bed late ever again.

But anyway,

Time to celebrate for me, guys!

Without Vase

Let flower blooms naturally

Let it be among its leaves

Because, for me, no matter which angle I see it

Flower never looks beautiful when it is in any vases

Because

I... L o v e... Y o u...

I then let you be as what you are

You are originally beautiful as you can be

And that is all I want to see

Things are beautiful in their own places.

Flowers are beautiful themselves, no need to be more decorated.

In the same way,

I would like you be as what you are.

I do not want you to change yourself

and never want anything more than a guy called "you."

And I wish you to know...

Everything you are

is the most beautiful thing I want to see.

Happy New Year!

There still is hope lies ahead of you on this New Year

HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!!

:)