Ryan Bingham was a busy guy. His job kept him busy so that he could find very little time to stay home. He traveled 270 days a yesr, mostly, he spent his time on the plane and hotel all over the USA. But, on the other hand, the job returned him a great life.
Ryan knew perfectly what to do when he went on a plane. He knew what to do in every steps just like it is routine schedule. His hobby is to collect mileages and, finally, he has got ten million miles and a platinum card to fly free anywhere in the world he wanted.
He said in his conference that we all had a backpack. We got people around us into that backpack. He then told people in his conference to feel the weight of that bag and making no mistake in one's relationships are the heaviest components in one's live.
He finally said the slower we move the faster we die.
So I kinda wonder if he loved these stuffs, I mean his work, and turned his back to any relationship? Or was it because he did not want anyone to share any moments with?
That is why he still was single?
But maybe not?
Since he once said, "If you think about it, your favorite memories, the most important moments in your life... were you alone? Life's better with company."
On the day he found himself could not stand on the stage and talk about trying not to take the relationship as a weight in one's life. He suddenly left the conference and catched a flight just to see a woman who he thought he was a part of her life and wanted to be with.
The truth knocked Ryan out when Alex opened the door and Ryan could see two boys ran up on stairs behide her and called her mom.
They never talked about their relationship and never defined what they were.
Alex told Ryan that their relationship was perfectly clear since the beginning. They were attracted to each other. They talked on the phone often. They spent some time together when they were free. They got along very well, either conversation or sex.
But they never talked about neither progression nor possibility in their reletionship.
So, when Alex said that he was a break from their normal life, it was when Ryan finally decided to move on.
There are various relationships in human life.
Some are simple ones, while some are complicated.
Sometimes, for some relationship, to let it be is the best?
While for some other ones, to figure out what position you are is better?
I know I am talking nonsense.
But I really don't understand something...
Somehow I am too young?
Somehow I am from another side of the world, so I have to adjust my attitude?
Somehow I have to learn more?
When trying to define what you are is getting yourself hurt, so somehow, knowing nothing and being chilled with what is going on in your life are better?
When the more you try to figure out, the more you put yourself in suffering moment, so why you have to rush to drive yourself into the corner.
In this case, I'd rather feel nothing than being anxious.
Ryan's face expression when he's standing at Alex's door told me something.
When the truth is projected behide the door you are standing at, then you realize you are not something, moreover, you even see perfectly that you do not have any rights to do anything you want.
You stop, stare, and stun.
Can you tell that, although without you, the world there is still turning?
I'd rather do as Ryan did,
jumped on a flight, back home, and let the life move on.
